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A New Day

May 142010

I woke up this morning with salty tears dried upon my cheeks from all the crying I did yesterday. My eyes were bloodshot and swollen, and I swear I looked as if I had aged ten years in one day.

I took a long look at myself and thought a lot about what has gone on these past few months.

Some of the things I have chosen to talk about on here and some I have not or cannot just yet. Regardless if you know the whole situation of the chaos that has been my life these past six months, just know that it has taken a toll on me physically, emotionally, and has at times seemed to be more than I can handle.

Yesterday was most certainly one of those times it seemed to be more than I could handle. The sadness I felt yesterday was almost overwhelming.

But even so… I woke up this morning to a new day. You see, what doesn’t kill me, makes me that much stronger. And since I’m still breathing… I must have gained strength.

Our children can hurt us more than anyone on this earth. Why? Because they are of us. Once you give birth to a child, you are no longer the same. You are no longer selfish, you finally realize what love really is. I may not agree with the road my two oldest children have chosen. I cry my tears of sorrow for the dreams I dreamt for them, and I have every right to. From the moment you have a child, you see them as a certain person. You see their talent, their beauty, their innocence. And you pray that God guides them to do what He has put them on the earth to do. You lead them the best you know how and then there comes the time to cut the apron strings and let them go.

And that my friends is when it gets hard. When you no longer have a say so in where they go, who they are with, and what they do. That time came too quick for me. I wasn’t ready. I’m still not.

As painful as it was to go through the hurt and sadness I felt yesterday, I made it through to a new day. Thankfully, there are no tears streaming down my cheeks today.

May we all remember that no matter how sad and hopeless today may seem, the dawn of a new day is just hours away and with a new day brings new hopes, new dreams, new mercies, and a new chance to do everything right.

Thank you God for a new day :)

Queen of The Nile Denial…

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Jul 292009

My oldest daughter, Megan, will begin her Senior year of high school tomorrow. I’m in denial. I have seen her Senior pics and still deny the fact that this is her last year of high school. After all, she is still my baby. Who the hell does she think she is growing up so fast? It was just the other day I was bathing her in that little tub over the sink, wasn’t it?

Makenzie, who is supposed to be the baby, has decided all of a sudden that she doesn’t want boobies anymore and is pretty much potty training herself. Does she not know I don’t need this right now? Especially with Megan going into her Senior year? I was supposed to have at least a few more months of her being a baby! How dare her.

Madison is starting her final year of middle school. She was the baby for ten years. How the hell can she be in the 8th grade and taller than me when only yesterday ~~okay, so it was 13 years ago~~ I was having an u/s to find out what she was?

And Devin is pretty much self sufficient at 3 1/2. He tells me all the time “I can do it, Mommy!” When did that happen? He was just bouncing in a jumperoo a few days ago, wasn’t he?

There is a man walking around my house everyday… he calls himself Dakota. He looks nothing like my Dakota though. My Dakota is a little guy that ~~unfortunately~~ looks just like my ex, and is afraid of thunderstorms. He just can’t have grown into a young man overnight, could he?

That old saying about your kids growing up in the blink of an eye is no joke. In the hurried moments of life as I’ve known it, all of my children have grown and changed right before my eyes and I feel like I haven’t even noticed. I’ve been with them almost every moment of their lives and I still feel like I’ve missed it.

I’m usually so excited for the kids to go back to school. I’m normally the mom you see dancing around Walmart singing “It’s the most wonderful time of the year” as we buy school supplies. But this year, not so much. I’ve been sad all day. We’ve had such a wonderful summer together- going to the pool, visiting the zoo, and just hanging out… it’s all gone too fast. And I know this school year will also fly by and before I know it we will all be a little older and I will be the mother of a graduate, with several more graduates right behind her.

If only I had a time machine. I’d stop time in its tracks… but alas I don’t. So I’ll just continue to be the Queen of Denial and try to remember to cherish every moment as it happens~

Simply Blessed Sundays!

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Jul 192009

Every Sunday I’m committing my blog to be “Simply Blessed Sunday”! That means I will be posting about the blessings that God has bestowed upon me and my family. I’d love for you to do the same as we all need a reminder from time to time of just how blessed we really are. If you’d like to join me in doing this, just copy the code under my Simply Blessed Sundays button and place it in the widget section on your blog. Oh and don’t forget to sign up on the list below my post and link your blog so we can all enjoy reading about your blessings as well!

With Devin being sick the last few days, it’s really made me realize how very blessed I am that all of my children are healthy. There are so many parents who would love for their child’s illness only to be a fever and some throwing up.

Friday night after I put the little ones to bed, I was surfing facebook and came across one of my old schoolmates. Her name is Sherry. She just recently found out she had Adenoid Cystic Carcinoma- in layman’s terms: eye cancer. She tried treatments for a few months, but last month decided to have her eye removed. She is currently going through radiation and unfortunately just found out her 2 1/2 year old son also has cancer. He will be going into surgery to remove a softball size tumor from his kidney this Tuesday. To read more of her and her little guys story click HERE . Please join me in praying for their healing.

So needless to say, her story and others like hers definitely brought Devin’s illness into perspective. It also made me feel bad for complaining about it on facebook when Sherry didn’t complain once. She just thanked everyone for their prayers~ What an awesome woman of God she is!

Thank you God for my healthy children and the fact that David and I are also healthy. It’s so easy to take things like your health for granted. Thank you for reminding us how very blessed we are.

What I’d like you to believe…

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Jun 292009

*That I’m a “real” redhead even though Ms. Clairol makes monthly visits to my home ;)

*That I’m a size 0 or 2 at the most… although I’m mostly a 6 and sometimes a 4 on my non-bloaty days.

*That I cook every night and do it in heels. Oh man does that one make me laugh! I do love to bake, but cooking is NOT my specialty. I cook *most* nights- but during the summer we mostly grill out. And I can’t remember the last time I wore heels, although I do love them. I just don’t think heels are worth the effort when you mostly wear your hair up and have a baby in a sling.

*That I’m the most die hard Christian ever. I do love God and I’m most certainly a Christian and try to represent Christ in a honorable manor, but I struggle with my human side and fail every day.

* That me and David have the best marriage! We do have a pretty good one, but I’ve been known to fling a peanut butter jar at him when he’s made me mad. (It is a long story and a long time ago… but alas I admit it!) Not to mention I fuss at him when he does the laundry wrong. Oh my… I’m reminding myself of my nagging mother in law.

*That my teenagers are perfect. But if you have read my blog for long, you already know that isn’t true. They are normal teens and push the limits sometimes. I think I handle them very well… or as well as I know how. Lots of prayer goes into raising them!

*That I’m miss Polly Patience with the little kids! Ha ha, boy is that one a funny. I’m not patient. At all. I have my days when I lose it and feel like running away. And I tell everyone that I’m going to. LOL But then I calm down and get through whatever I lost my patience with and I’m ready to be a Mom again :)

*That I shower everyday… well, at least every other day.

*That I always love that I still breastfeed Makenzie. Most days it’s good-when she only nurses once maybe twice. Some days though she wants to nurse off and on all day and that’s when I seriously regret nursing her this long.

*That my body looks like a supermodel! Ah well, one can dream… right?!

*That we are rich! We are definitely not rich. My husband works a lot of overtime to pay for our house and provide for us. We are blessed with a house big enough to fit our large family, but have the big house payment to go with it.

*That I never swear! Oh well… you guys know that one isn’t true. Enough said.

*That I don’t have any annoying habits! Oh but I do. I bite and pick at my lips.

*That my house is spotless! Oh my how I wish that were true. I do my best to keep things picked up- and things are clean, but boy is there a lot of clutter around here. I guess one day when all the kids are grown, I will have a spotless house and not know what to do!

*That I’m not a gossip! Well, I don’t really tell anything… but I do love to hear it. Who doesn’t want the scoop on things?!

*That I always have something funny to say… hey, that one is pretty much true :)

*That I don’t have a dirty mind. Lord help me… I do. Bad. But you know what they say… a dirty mind is a bad thing to waste ;) ha ha

Oh well. I guess what I’d like you to believe about me really doesn’t matter. When I blog, I blog about me. My kids. My life. My opinionated, bitchy mother in law. And it’s not edited. What you get from me is real. Really me. Really my life. Because why would I ever want to make you believe something different? What you see is what you get… I hope you like it ;)

Have you ever…2nd edition!

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Jun 242009

~Gone to pull back your child’s diaper to check for poo and ended up with a brown finger? I have

~Had your 3 year old come over to you and tell you proudly, “Look Mommy! I picked a booger!”… then proceed to wipe it on you? I have

~Gone to the grocery store and heard some children screaming and acting like fools then realized they were yours?! I have

~Checked on your 3 year old who was doing #2 and found the bathroom smeared in his poo because he needed wiping but didn’t call you because “he can do it all by himself!” ? I have

~Gagged on the smell of your child’s poop? I have

~Licked your child’s ice cream cone because it was dripping everywhere even though you thought that was nasty when your parents did it and said you never would? I have

~Had your child announce that your breath stinks in a large group of people? I have

~Rolled over in the bed at night to find your child there and he’s gotten sick and you just got puked on? I have

~Wondered who all these kids running around your house were and why in the hell they call YOU Mommy? I have

~Cleaned up the living room only to find it trashed ten minutes later? I have

~Taken your child to the bathroom at the pool and then have to go yourself and have him ask you out loud over and over… “Mommy are you poopin’ cause it stinks!” ? I have

~Thanked God for nickelodeon, on demand, and whoever created Barney because they buy you some much needed me time during the day? I have

~Wondered how the hell the Duggars survive? I have

~Had your child get sunburned because you forgot to put sunscreen on them before water day at preschool? I have

~Thought you looked good in your new shirt but then realized that everyone was looking at you- not because you looked good, but because you had left the little round sticker labeled S for small and it was located right where your nipple is? I have

~Tripped then looked around to see if anyone saw you? I have

~Been told by your 13 year old while at the mall that you seriously needed to tweeze your brows because you were looking like Bert from Sesame Street? I have

~Sharted? I have

~Scanned a whole cart full of items at Walmart only to realize that you forgot your debit card at home? I have

So come on everybody- tell it! Have YOU ever?

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